Friday, January 30, 2009

Video of the Week

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Gym time, gym time... lalala!

God, what a horrible title for a post.

Aaahhh... yeah. So I joined a gym. Something I've wanted to do for ages, but never really got around to. Now that I'm paying almost 50 bucks a month, I want to make it worth my while - so I feel compelled to go every stinkin' day. I'm on day 2 of my membership, mind you. Haha.

But seriously, I think I've taken a step in the right direction. As my co-workers and I are wont to do, we were bitching today about our weight issues (we usually bitch while getting greasy lunch somewhere - thankfully today I wasn't getting greasy lunch, but just rode along). I was talking about how I discovered that I weigh exactly the same as I did this time last year, but I can't fit into the same pants I was wearing back then. How is that possible?

So my "workouts" have only included walking and jogging intervals on the treadmills so far, but it's a lot better than what I've been doing, which is nothing.

And I joined for a year! So that means, if I don't go, I'm definitely going to feel guilty. And probably get a lot of shit from my husband about wasting money.

Updates to come on my gym experience. This is the first time in 9 years that I've been to a gym. I'm pretty excited!

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

4 Eyed E-Lo

Friday I had an eye doctor appointment - my first in two years. I regularly wear contacts - gas permeable because my eyes are so horrible. They've even dropped a point down to -9 or however that goes since the last time I had my eyes checked. Needless to say, I'm blind as shit. Because shit doesn't have eyes. And if it did, that would be way creepy. But I've been wearing my contacts for 20 years! Since I was 12! And now? Now I'm planning on getting my eyes LASERED. With a LASER.

So, in order to do that, I have to wear my glasses ONE MONTH for every TEN YEARS that I've worn my contacts - at a minimum. Because contacts - especially gas permeable ones - change the shape of your eyeball, or something like that. And after two months of wearing my glasses, I go back to the doctor to get evaluated to see if I even QUALIFY to have the surgery.

Can I tell you how bad it SUCKS wearing glasses when your eyes are as bad as mine? Especially after I mostly wore contacts for all those years? I haven't worn glasses full time since sixth grade. And it's hard to see out of mine. But I ordered new ones, since my insurance covered it. I will hopefully have them in a week or so. They look like this:

So, they're pretty cute. Cuter than the ones I have now, which look like this:

My new facebook photo!

Which aren't too bad, but after 2 years of a baby/toddler pulling them off my face, they're a little on the warped side. The thing that sucks most is putting my makeup on in the morning. Because have I mentioned I can't see without glasses or contacts? And putting on eye makeup without either involves me having my face pressed against the mirror?

AND, AND, AND, I'm going to Florida next month. That's right, FLORIDA. Land of sun and beaches and ohmigod I can't wear sunglasses and my eyes are super sensitive to the sun and it's gonna suck so bad.

Hopefully, on March 20, I'll find that I'm a prime candidate for this surgery (which I should be, there's no reason I wouldn't be, as my eye doctor said, "you have perfectly healthy eyes, you just can't see!"), and it will be so worth it to have 20/20 vision again. The day that I wake up, roll over, and am able to see my alarm clock perfectly is going to be FAN-FREAKING-TASTIC!

Sunday, January 11, 2009

On trying to feel normal and not succeeding...

The last couple of days have been increasingly frustrating for me, and I feel incredibly guilty because of it. The cause of my frustration is Lyric, who definitely can be sweet as pie and I love her dearly. I realize that I work all week, and when I'm around she just wants to be near me, but the past few days have felt almost like that one time I was dating that guy that really didn't let me breathe. She's got to be on top of me at all times, and if she's not, she's saying, "mama, mama, mama, mama," on repeat. The level of annoyance I feel makes me wonder if my meds have stopped working - yesterday I was ready to throw myself into oncoming traffic. Instead, I put my ipod in my ears and set about cleaning the bathroom.

Is it wrong that I feel this way? Because I feel totally wrong. There are moments that I'd love to just be able to be alone - to be able to check my email or update my facebook status without a little person constantly tugging on my arm or trying to crawl into my lap. I know she loves me - I've already heard it from my mom, because I admitted to her the other day that I just called her and put her on speakerphone so Lyric would leave the room I was in - she hates talking to any of her grandparents on the phone.

I love my kid - I really do. But when is it "me" time? Ryan is laid off right now, and he spends the day with her - he gets to go out at night and hang out and do whatever. It's the classic situation of becoming a mother - my life is either work or being mom. It doesn't leave time for much else.

Just had to get my frustration out - as hard as it is to type with a squirming three year old in your lap.

I will say that yesterday we had a great snowstorm - probably close to a foot of snow. Lyric and I went outside and played, and I found it really fun to run uncontrollably through the snow and just let myself fall. Lyric thought that was hysterical.

Monday, January 05, 2009

On Resolving (or Resoluting?)

A few more things I wanted to add to my list...

Take more pictures. Yeah, if you look at my flickr page, you know I already do this. But out of the thousands of pictures I took last year, I like maybe a handful of them. Only two of them don't involve my daughter, or people at all. So I resolve to become a better photographer - starting with this book. I just learned on Saturday how to get my camera to shoot in RAW - and I've owned it for a year. C'mon, now. GAWD.

Run a 5K. I've been thinking about this for a while. There's one at the end of March in Cook Forest. Think I can be ready? It would be a really great excuse to take Red out running - and if there's anyone besides me in this house that needs to lose a few, it's Red. He's definitely got a handle on the three Fs - Furry, Friendly, and FAT. However, I still want to convince my husband that I NEED A TREADMILL. HELLLLLOOO??? TREADMILL!!! And it's COLD out!

Discover new music. I'm constantly doing this, but I'm going to keep at it. Today was my first iTunes purchase of 09 (also resolving to only use iTunes cards to purchase music - using my bank account is messy), and I'm loving the band: Does it Offend You, Yeah? My drive home was much happier and faster with that album.

Get my green thumb back. I'm not sure why, but lately my green thumb has gotten brown. I used to have quite and extensive plant collection, and they're pretty much all dying off. I think it's because the kittens peed in them though.

I'm also expanding my horizons as a designer - today was Day 1 of my three day Flash training. So far, so good.

I've read 6 books in the past 3 weeks. LOVE being off from school. Only one week of slacker time left.

And Lyric and I just planted our first Chia pet. A first for both of us.

It's a good start to the new year so far. And my husband wants a Wii! FINALLY!!!