Wednesday, November 26, 2008

30 Days of Shredding

Ok, so you know by now I have issues with my weight. I can't stick with a diet, I'm lazy and unmotivated, and I have terrible self esteem. I lost 30 pounds after having Lyric by following Weight Watchers and doing the only Winsor Pilates aerobic workout out there, which was 60 minutes in length. I was unemployed then, so I had a lot of time. I was also breastfeeding, which I think helped. Since I weaned Lyric a year and half ago I've gained back 15 pounds.

I'm now doing this Biggest Loser competetion at work, and so far after 3 weeks, I've only lost 3 pounds (and I think I gained it back after Lyric's birthday party on Saturday). I figure the only way I'm going to lose is by doing cardio/strength training, with maybe some pilates in there for my abs.

Can I tell you how much I HATE cardio? I hate jumping around, being soaked in sweat (because I sweat more than the average woman), and I hate taking time out of my day to do it. But I made up my mind that I HAVE to. Because this weight isn't coming off by dieting.

So on Sunday, I opened up my latest Netflix, which was Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred. I don't know what even convinced me to put this at the top of my queue, since it's not anything that I would have ever chosen normally. But I tried it Sunday morning and was pretty amazed. It's only 20 minutes or so, and she combines weights, cardio, and ab work with 3 levels of intensity. I did level 1, being in the poorest shape of my life, and literally thought I might DIE. I was sweaty and shaking and OH MY GOD did my legs hurt on Monday. Needless to say, since I found it difficult to walk on Monday, I took the day off, but I resumed last night.

Here's the wierd thing - I know I've only done it twice, but I actually feel... how should I put this? More solid? I haven't weighed myself, and I highly doubt that I've lost any weight, but I can feel the muscles that I forgot I had - getting stronger. My stomach feels flatter. It's so weird.

So I'm going to keep at it for 30 Days - I've only read glowing review of this and how people got so in shape and went from a size 8 to a 4 in 10 weeks, etc. I figure if they can do it, why the hell can't I?

My husband told me the other day that I'm bordering on obsessive compulsive when it comes to my weight, and it's disturbing. Since I already have some OCD tendancies it's probably true. But I just want to feel better. I can't stand feeling like I do - and I'm the only one who is going to do anything about it. I think if I document it here, it will help. So watch for my updates.

Monday, November 24, 2008

Team Edward

I fall under this category:

I haven't seen the movie yet, but I will. Geek? Yessss.

Lyric turned three on Saturday. We had a little birthday party, which was fun and tiring. She had a blast and was out by 7:30. So were Ryan and I.

She's so funny - her new thing is to ask me if I "know about" certain things. She got a Barbie Rock Star dress up outfit from Bill and Michelle, and she was dancing around last night singing, "I'm a rock star! I'm a rock star!" then she looks at me and says, "Mom, do you know about rock stars?" to which I replied, "yes, sweetie, I'm married to your daddy."

Inquisitive little thing.

Oh, and I went to my first Steelers game last Thursday. It was cold. Thankfully, they won.

Frozen solid

It was fun with a capital F which also stands for FREEZING. But mostly fun.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Let's hear it for the moms!

I just read the news on Dooce, and I'm so excited for Heather and Jon and big sis to be Leta!

Dude, I have the baby fever. BAD. Everyone I see is having babies. I just played with my friend Janae's little boy last night, and I want one of those! Eeeek.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Home sweet home

Last week, I spent five days working in San Diego. It was my first trip ever to the West Coast, and I’m excited to say I’ve finally gotten to that part of the country. Although I’m not fluent enough in Spanish to have felt at home, being so close to the Mexican border. I really need to brush up on those skills – although I can ask for a lemonade and pronounce the President-Elect’s campaign slogan in Spanish pretty well.

As much as I love visiting cities, I never feel fully comfortable. Number one could be because I’ve lived a very sheltered life. Not as sheltered as most people from Western PA, but I haven’t been to that many places. I’m certainly very open minded, and I’ll travel just about anywhere that my company wants me to go. Unfortunately they’re usually asking me to go to Washington DC (which is fine, I love DC) or Williamsburg (great town for history!). So when I get to go to CALIFORNIA I’m pretty excited.

But as we walked through the gaslamp district, which is wonderful, I still missed the cracked sidewalks of Grove City and the wind that blows up the hill in East Butler directly at my 60 year old house (which is great in winter!). As I scooted around the bums sitting on the sidewalks begging for change, I missed dodging the skunks that frequent my backyard. Most of all, I kept feeling like part of me was missing, and I realized that part of me was my child, who was back at home.

For some reason this trip was hard for me – I missed Lyric a ton. I even broke down in tears before I left her – I kept telling myself to suck it up, that I’ve done this before and it wasn’t that big of a deal. I think now that she’s a little older and we have daily conversations that actually make sense, being away from her was so much harder. And the fact of the matter was, she doesn’t talk on the phone. It’s like pulling teeth to get her to have a phone conversation, so as much as I wanted to talk to her, she wouldn’t do it.

Getting off the plane at Pittsburgh International last Wednesday was a wonderful relief – I felt like a weight had been lifted off of me when I called Ryan to tell him I’d be home in about an hour. When I arrived home, Red was the first one I saw, and if you think that a dog doesn’t feel emotions, I’ll show you what Red was like when I walked through the door. I’ve never seen him happier. That was a homecoming in itself, along with Boots nonchalantly rubbing on my ankles then scurrying away.

I tiptoed up the stairs to the bedroom to find Lyric and Ryan already in bed for the night, but Lyric popped her head up when I came in the room and yelled, “Mommy! You’re home! I missed you, Mom!” and proceeded to give me lots of hugs and kisses. I can’t even describe the feeling of wholeness in that moment – to finally be back where I belonged, in my old house on the hill in East Butler, surrounded by the people I love more than anything.

Family is good.

Tuesday, November 04, 2008

I voted

And I have the sticker on my shirt to prove it.

I was at my polling place with Lyric in tow at 6:58, and I was the 10th person in line. Lyric was very excited about voting with mommy - I kept telling her all weekend we were going to go vote for Obama. And it's very cute when she says "Obama."

If you haven't already, GO VOTE!

Obama Pictures and McCain Pictures

I hope so... I just found out my boss will go work for McCain if he's elected... I like my boss - I don't want him to leave!