Tuesday, December 29, 2009


I remember dreading this time of year - when I worked in retail. If you go back to the 2003 posts around this time, you'll see how I was counting the days and hours when I was working at Target. I'm so glad that I'm sitting in an office, pretty much playing Farmville on Facebook all day.

Speaking of Farmville - if you're one of those people who bitch about seeing Farmville posts all the time in your news feed, how about you "hide" those notifications, huh? Quit being lazy. Your bitching about it isn't going to stop me from leveling up and sharing my bonus, emeffer.

I'm sitting here in my office, wondering why the hell I bothered to come to work today. I've gotten a few things done, but wow. I'm bored. I feel like drinking coffee and watching the snow fall. I have the coffee - now if I only had a window in my office.

I started working out again yesterday. I took a month off after doing a few weeks of P90X. Here's the problem with working out - for me, anyway - once I start, I can't stop. Once I do stop, I immediately put on weight. WTF? And it's not like I'm in bad shape - I did Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred yesterday without even taking a break (except for the pushups - I still do girl ones). So I don't get it.

Ok, I'm going to go make some coffee and stand by a window somewhere. Happy Holidays!

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Win some, lose some

In our collective efforts at baby making, we were successful. For a minute.

I took a pregnancy test on Thursday. I could faintly see a second line. Not satisfied with that, I ran to the store and bought one of the digital readout tests - I will never resort to buying cheap pregnancy tests again. Peed on a stick, and there it was, "pregnant." Whoa! That was fast!

I told Ryan later in the evening, and he was surprised, but proud of himself. His efforts mean a lot to him. We made plans to tell our parents on Christmas Eve, and were pretty damn excited.

Something woke me up early Sunday, and I went to the bathroom and realized I was bleeding. Then the cramps started, which I would liken to labor pains. Not nearly as intense, but because I rarely get cramps even when I have my period, they were pretty crazy. I knew what was happening, and I was not happy. At all.

Thankfully the cramping part didn't last long - when you're already a mom, other things distract you from your own drama - which can be a good thing sometimes. I went to the doctor yesterday and my test result was negative - and they told me my pregnancy test results could have been a false positive, or a very, very early miscarriage. I vote for the latter. I know I was pregnant - I could feel it. I recognized it. I could smell EVERYTHING.

So it's back to the drawing board for us - and although it sucks, it makes me appreciate that I have a healthy, although BRATTY, little girl. I love her more than anything, and I'm so thankful that I have her in my life.

Friday, December 04, 2009

Coming back ya'll

Yeah, I realize that I haven't had a post up in 3 months.


Me and Ryan... we're trying to get preggo. So let the fun baby talk commence!

I'm working on updating the look here, and what the hell, I might just get a domain name. We'll see.

Lots of boring shit has been going on in my life lately, like playing Farmville on Facebook and making certificate after certificate for "Files Tech of the Month" at work and mundane shit like that. My house has been turned upside down for a few months too, and I think the long awaited bathroom remodel is about to begin. At least I hope. But at this point it's kind of like hearing that I'm going to get a raise at work - I'll believe it when I see it.

More soon...