An End to the Zen

My zen moments are sitting on my porch early in the morning, feeding my yard animals. Since I can't have pets in my lovely mobile home community, the closest thing I have is wildlife. I don't think I've done this for about 2 weeks now. I'm really missing my squirrels. Now I have crows that come and eat my squirrel food. Its really disapointing when I hear them squacking about in the yard, cause I know they're eating the food that isn't meant for them. Then I worry that if the squirrels and chipmunk (yes, one lone chipmunk) don't eat my food, they'll starve. So I worry, cause I've spoiled the wild animals, and now they count on me for their livelihood. Maybe its the other way around...